Tomorrow is SURGERY DAY!!!!

And so it begins . The Journey of weight loss. Doc visit today ..he is very happy , and so am I ..LOST 9 POUNDS!!!!! Blood/Pressure is 130/80 Excellent ..Sugars are Excellent!!!! what a great day.... :o)

Fly out tomorrow .. I think I can get through tonight knowing that it will be done soon ... I really think iam more excited then I am nervous ..that is a good thing. Poor Denis is scared ..He hates toronto..and I understand ... but dad will watch over me~~~

Hope the beds are comphy at the hotel .. b ut I hear that they are the best .... after the band is in .. 1 week liquids 1 week puread~~1 week soft ~~then start slowly on real food ...
Iam looking forward to full liquid on third day I get tomatoe soup..yummie!! I feel like its going to be cheating haha cant wait !

Well lots to do not done packing . And I have to make sure I have all my meds etc....

I will try and contact on my blackberrie ... love to all... soon to be Bandit-annie xxx

May 23-24-25

I guess I have been busy lately...Sorry for not writing in the blog~~~
Well on the 23th Denis and I celebrated 28 years married~~and also denis turned 56
Yes that is right people. He wanted me for his Birthday present...hahaha Sucker!!! (just kidding) :o)

He is so romantic ! We went to the corner store and got movies!!! WOW! how exciting!

My girlfriend Debbie & her hubby Don came over and saved the day with real presents!!!
Aren't girlfriends great! :o)

All kidding aside . Denis and I had a lovely quite evening . And loved the movies laughed and cryed... telling Debbie old stories and peed my pants . You know one of those feel good days :o)

Yesterday Debbie & I went shopping at the mall . It was Sunday and many of the shops were closed... but I was still happy being with my friend :o) She was hungry and so she bought herself a sub sandwich. Which of course I could not eat ....but that is OK cause I was happy being with my friend...

Debbie told me , she knew where there was a great place to buy my sister a snowball tree.
We drove for hours! because we were lost . And it was raining cats & dogs..But that is ok cause I was happy just being with my friend hahaha
Finally got home to have my wonderful supper of Liquid chocolate yummy !!! NOT! Do you know how to spell GAG!!!!

Ok so now you know I am bitchy and hungry ya think .... whaaaaaaaaaaa!

Today I had more energy . Did 3 loads of clothes ...made my bed....spent tons of time on the phone(by the way ) Miss Elizabeth.. enjoyed our talk today ... :o)

TV is boring ...cant eat ..I guess I`ll just shoot myself...

One more day before I leave ... Nervous..yep..Kind of sick to my stomach... No wait ! I think that is because Iam hungry whaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
Until tomorrow ...keep tunning in.... Thanks for the love!!! Annie xxx

6 Days before Surgery

Well The medi-trim is not getting any better , but perhaps my thinking is . So many times I feel like cheating. But I always seem to find some inner strength to help me . Terri If you can hear me . Thanks for making this surgery possible for me.. I will love you and miss you always...

Beautiful day out there today :o) makes everything so much nicer . They are having a big sale at the mall. maybe I will go and pick out my goal outfit . Wonder what size I will be ????????????

Had my hair dyed today . She always does such a nice job... She is a supporter of what I am doing. And she cant wait to see me at different times , at different sizes.

Anyway must go . I have lots to get done that I let go ... Low energy and down right lazy....

Keep suppporting me and leave comments please . I check everyday.. Love to all Annie xxx

Where's The Beef ??????????

8 days on this Medi-Trim . One would think that I'D BE melting away ..NOT
Its amazing how will power works . Some days you have more then others. Had some mushrooms and brussel sprouts with the Medi-trim ..

I think I ate to much I feel bloated & fat wait a min ...I am fat ( hehehe) .. Denis has been busy ...for the most part he keeps his distance. cant blame him , I am so bitchy I hate myself :o)
Mom made another coconut cream pie today ..thank God that we had visiters. I think they ate it all.. not sure though .

I will be Dreaming of all that fried fish and potatoes. I swear that I almost got in the car to buy some KFC WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Iam scared as I came pretty dam close . What the hell is wrong with someone who loves food more then their life ...
This is about shrinking my liver for surgery..what is wrong with you Annie? dont make me slap myself!

So you think you can dance will be on at 9:00 love that show . Its very active and gets the blood moving ... And then you see how fit and slim they are , and you want to be just like them. Motivating for sure .

Well thanks so much for the support means more then you know.... Hope you all enjoy my venting lol love to all Annie xxx

Another Day ~~~Doc's Visit

Hello there ... denis's test came back good ...Doc says he is healthy ! .... he says my B/pressure is still high .. so yet another pill to take *&^*&%$^#$@%#@%^&

I am so disgusted .. I think I am doing everything right ...
So he says "when are you leaving" I said " next Wednesday" he said "good be here Tuesday" so sick of this ... and to think I gave up smoking for my health.... ????? makes me think ..oh never mind ~~~~~
been eating brussel sprouts , and now have heartburn . But its a filler .. and thank God for them .. :o)

Bought a B/pressure monitor... what crap ! I wonder is there really a home monitor that ever worked?
Greenwood Military base had an air show today . We got to see it from our yard. Totally amazing how they do that . Hanna was scared , but not Heidi . Not much scares her :o) But the roar of the jets makes me scared also . When I was a small child, I witnessed one crash ..it never left my thoughts . Every time I see one I think of that day.

Well I have to try and get more water down..seems to be very hard for some reason . But have to flush all the toxins out of my body.

Well hope you stay with me in my Journey ..it will be a lonley one without you ... love to all Annie xxx

Better Day Today :o)

Had some cabbage today . Felt better for it .. made me less hungry and more satisfyed.
Better weather today .. Sunny ... its been terrible and damp latley.

American Idol tonight . I really think that Chris has a good chance , if it were based on tonights show .
I think Adam did not do so well and both, did not make that song sound good ... however, Chris did a better Job then Adam.

Tomorrow another day of torture . Will be going to see the doc .. Both Denis and I . For Me its just to re-check blood work . For Denis its getting results of all his test .. Hope all will be well with him .

My goodness Heather I will say a little pray that your headachs go away .. Poor you ! I did have them for 4 days ..not pleasent at all!

I cant believe that a week from tomorrow i will leave to get the surgery ...wow! life changing move ... well my friends I will close with that ..time for much needed meds and sleep..love to all ...keep up the support :o) love Annie xxx

5th day On Medi-Trim : o(

Well I can sit here and tell lies . But since that is not what I want my blog to be about , here is the truth. This is a lot harder then Iever thought it could be . maybe if I were alone and no food in the house , things would be better .
But this is the real world , and family has to eat ...

On the bright side , I do know that it will only be 9 more days of this ... and instead of imagining yummy food, I try and imagine skinny healthy me :o)

Another rainy day . This does not help . I seem to have no energy and all ..( possibly depression setting in) I want to do is crawl in bed with the covers over me , wishing that the time would pass like magic!
Anyway the sun will shine tomorrow and out i will go for some much needed fresh air .

This journey will be good for me . And I know that I will look back at this , and know that it was a much needed way to shrink my liver .
I have brought this all on myself ... Just being a pig with food... and living to eat ~~ not eating to live... One of these days I will learn..until tomorrow ..love to all who reads this and many blessings! love Annie xxx

Day 4 On Medi-Trim

What can I say about today? Sawdust everywhere~~ Trying to keep Hanna from jumping out of her skin, when Denis puts on the power tools..
Running after Heidi who is running after Denis to see what all the noise is about ~~~ The joys of remodeling!

Got to eat some baby spinach today . Had some cooked . And even tryed some raw ... Wow yummy NOT!!! I am having wit drawls something terrible ... Headache all day ... bitchy ...
I want a cheese burger!!!!!! OK that felt good :o)

Survivor tonight 3 hours ~~~ So I guess my mind will be more occupied . Then take my good drugs and go nitie nite..... Hoping tomorrow will be a better day..love to all and please keep supporting me ... love Annie xxx

Day 2 & 3 On Medi-Trim

# Thirth day on medi-Trim .. I was doing great, and then I cooked chicken for my babies . I started to crave with the smell and all . I would have givin anything at that moment for a hit of chicken. Yes I mean a "hit" just like drugs . Because that's what I felt like . A druggie wanting a "hit " of Crack~~~

Well anyway if I want to go from a Butterball to a Cornish Hen , I better get that under raps!
And by the way , I did not give in to temtation and was a very good dobie :o)

Beautiful sunny day today . Went for a short walk. Then walked just around the yard. I feel like I have a bit more energy. I guess I will be losing some weight with this Medi-Trim. Dont know how much but, Hoping for at least 15. that would be a great start!

Starting to pack my little suit case. The Clinic said to wear something big to the sugery.
Who are they kidding, everything I own is big lol

Well my friends Iam so tired tonight , and in need of a good bath. Nancy if you are reading this . Welcome Home!!! And Heather glad you are doing better :o) Thanks for all the support love you all Annie xxx

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1st Day Of Medi-trim

Ok so here it is . My 1st day of 14 days on medi-trim.. alreay I am ready to kill hubbie. As I am trying to deal with hunger, and trying to keep my mind off of food, jack-ass is out there eating 4 lobsters!
I am sitting here wondering if I can get away with murder? Oh well If thoughts could do damage Denis would be in trouble :o)

I dont mind the chocolate shake . Its pretty good I must say . However I still carve the stuff that got me in this mess in the first place. I am told, that this will only last about 3 days. Then I won't feel hungry at all ( one can only hope)
Surviver is on tonight . I kind of feel like I am on surviver.... out last and out wit the food game ! And my prize will be the small jeans whoooooo hoooooo :o)

Sugar is down to 8.6 wow what a change .. I am very happy . Even though its not normal as yet, its pretty darn close!
Its going to rain for the next 4 days .... I am going to be mighty sore ... but I will get through it drugs are good :o)

Feeling very optomistic and blessed to be able to do this .... life is good! until tomorrow~~~love to all~~~~thanks for the support ... H~~ I hope you feel better tomorrow. It can only get better .. Thanks to Elizabeth my shoulder and rock!! love Annie xxx

The Last Supper

It has finally come. The last meal before liquid Diet. Which also means 2 weeks before the surgery . This is a big step in my life. But I believe its the best choice I have ever made . I am very nervous about everything .

And even scared that I might ****up. But I will keep in mind that this is not a diet really. But a shrinking of my fatty liver, so that surgery will be much easier, & of course safer. Had Hanna & Heidi to the vet today .
Heidi has breathing trouble and is over weight .. she is 5.6 pounds hanna is under weight at 3.4 pounds I guess Heidi is eating Hanna's food grrrr I will be watching them very careful from now on. Heidi is a minie me eats, sleeps. and and likes to lay arround .. Both of us need to get the weight off! So after I bought the flea and heart worm meds , it came to $182.00 :o( anyway when I lose the weight I will be out walking more and Miss Heidi will be with me all the way .. that is until she needs me to carry her . I will consider that weight training lol.. Tomorrow should be very interesting. Until then love to all .Thanks for the support ...also Good Luck Heather !!! my Band-sister love Annie xxx

Biggest Loser Final Tonight!!!!

Hello everyone! Had a great Day sugars are getting lower :o) I guess the meds are doing their thing. Sunny day out there . It really seems to lift the spirits high . Biggest loser finals tonight 3 hours yeh!!!
That show really inspires me ... except the 6 or 8 hours they work out that is .... I would be flat on my back waiting for the ambulance.

I bought a DVD of work-out with Jillian.. Did 5 min of the 15 min warm up . I swear to you on God's word ,that I could not walk for 4 days! I laugh about it now. But believe me it was not funny at the time. I am definitely not ready for Jillian now or anytime soon lol.

Went for another walk today. Both my babies and I loved it ( poms) Nice to get the fresh air and the exercise without hurting . Buds are all out and flowers . And the smell is so beautiful, and everything is green . Its funny how some days I love nature so musch ,that I just want to be swallowed up in it forever . Then there are day when I just want to go in the bedroom and hide.. I guess its just how I feel about my life and body .. Well just tomorrow left and then my journey really begins.. Thanks again to all for support . Love Annie xxx

3 More Days To Med-Trim (liquid diet)

Doctor gave me another pill for my sugars today. Thank God its working sugars are lower :o)Did not have much energy today . But managed to wash clothes and make my bed . Sounds like I did nothing , but its lots from the last 3 days of wanting to sleep my day away . I discovered today that music lowers the b/pressure . Thanks H :o)

Denis came home early . It was nice to see him. He has been so busy lately . When he works here in the house, at least I see him.My mom has a fly swatter that she makes threats with' it to her little yorkie Holly. Holly chewed in in half. LMAO .... Its really hard to be angry with a 2 pound cutie pie .

Today I tryed to watch what I was eating .. I never ate between meals and tryed very hard not to over eat . I believe I did well :o) I am putting my eyes on the prize!!!! time to say my prayers . I have a lot of thanking and asking for help tonight ... So if your one who Talks to God, whisper my name to him .....Thanks love Annie xxx

Missed a Blog. So May So May 9 & 10th

Well Happy mother's to everyone! Was so tired yesterday that I went to bed & did not do my blog... Sorry about that . Yesterday was A repeat of the day before. High Sugars and H/pressure..I know that my B/pressure was high as the pain in my head and neck was terrible.

My morning started off with coffee and phone calls ... My dear friend gave me a much needed pep talk. Things I already know of course , but because I am stupid, and childish at times. I seem to always have excuses for ignoring the danger signals in my own body. So little miss Elizabeth (yes you my friend) found it nessasary to give it to me both barrels ..

And yes I did go and take that walk! thanks to you I gave myself more energy and came back to clean house and laundry. (wait a min that is to much work) :o) Anyway thanks to good friends! I will need lots of help Mom made a big Choclate cake..before she came over with her goodies , I told her "mom my sugars are really high now and from now on I will not be eating any deserts" I am very proud of myself. That was very hard to do . I figure if Denis wants to eat a piece he can goi next door ... Anyway 4 more days till medi-trim.. then Iam going to need all the help I can get ... love to all Annie xxx ps. thanks Miss E

Oh My Stars!!!

Sugars are very high... this morning 24.1 dOC IS SO UPSET AND WANTS ME ON INSULIN .!! Hoever because I am starting medi-trim soon and that is very low calories its a wait an see game .. now iam on the 5 metform hopefullythings will change in a hurry ... all I seem to do is lay down and sleep .. I am very tired , but maybe its the pressure and sugars that does that . All I know is that I think this sugary will help alot . Weight has got to come off , and sugars will come down . I find myself putting lights on and feeling down in the dumbs . The lights seem to make a difference in attitude. I am a little nervous about everything and some people have their own thoughts on the sugery that I dont want to hear . I try and stay positive as much as I can. Going out to supper tomorrow at my friends . That will cheer me up . You know its all about the food !!! until tomorrow Annie xxx

Doc's Visit

Ok not a good day! B/pressure was higher then last week.And my fasting B/sugar was 18
To say he was upset, is putting it mild. Now I am on 5 metformin . And if I was not having this surgery, he told me that he would put me on insulin. I now have to go back to see him on the 20th . On the 14 I start the Meditrim so I know that I will be losing some weight from that ... sugars will be low ..In fact I was warned to be very careful as to not make it to low ..
another rainy day. Not good for the moral ! 21 days till surgery. Will I make it ???? Annie xxx

Rainy day and worried

Hello again. Looked at my blog from yesterday. Wow! I must have been really tired . Half of the words are not even making sence..Good drugs LMAO .
Well the Toronto nurse called . They have the results ofthe EKG . Says that is just fine . When I asked about the blood tests , she kind of hesitated and then said doctor will be looking them over . Ok so now I am worried that something is wrong :o( Have to see doctor tomorrow as last week my B/pressure was 160/94 he was not happy . So he will check it again when I see him. He also says that he thinks my liver is enlarged. Sweet Jesus, what is next whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
anyway I do know that I have a fatty liver do to over eating the wrong things ,and also the Diabetes . Tomorrow I will find out the results of bloodwork .
I read that after surgery , for 24 hours its only water ... I think I will talk with doc about that ... .. let you all know what he says ... Annie xxx

pre-op blood work

hospital blood work and EKG ... needed to pee in bottle so i did that and dropped bottle in toilet
so had to wait until I was able to try again . SO good every done . Now I will worry about the results... always something. Starting to pack a bag .. trying to follow the guidlines of the centre and airlines. watched biggest loser tonight . Love that show ,gives you lots of support
been really tired the arthris as been bad today si will be taking to easy for a bit
well more tomore tonorrow love annie xxx

Getting closer 9 days to medi-trim

Today I went shopping to buy body detox. I also bought powder of greens . 3 teaspoons contain 7 servings of the greens you need . Wow... I like that idea .. its hard to take that many greens each day. I have never been all the way into a health food store. I am totally amazed at the products they offer. And shocked at the outrageous prices! Never realized how much it cost to be healthy. I was told that all my pills would have to be crushed, for easy swallowing . So I bought a crusher. Cheapest thing on my list !
Pre-op blood work tomorrow. Yuk I hate needles whaaaaaaaaaaaaa ...I know, small price to pay ! Someone told me I looked pretty today ... It melted my heart .... small words ..huge impact :o) talk tomorrow xxx

10 days before I start medi-trim

Well today I think I ate myself out of house and home! Its kind of like the last supper or something. Hard to explain. My body and mind are fighting over the fact that soon, I will no longer be eating like a pig. I consintrate on what I will look like when..... And dream of the little black dress. Ok maybe not the little black pants , but the skinny jeans ...oh yeh!!! We had a beautiful lassie dog here today ... finally found his owner . Thank God ,because I would not have had any sleep tonight ... going through my clothes . I will have lots to get rid of yippie..

My friend Debbie says she is coming over tomorrow with cake .... slap slap slap
but have no fear i will have 1 piece and remember that soon i will have none. at least not a whole piece ..maybe 1 fork full ... my stomach will be the size of a small child, Glad for the ones that are looking into my blog . need all the suupor I can get . Thanks ..keep checking annie xxx

Hello there .. I have decided to start a blog for my weightloss surgery may 28th . This has always been a sad day for me , as my Dad passed on this date. But I think he would be very proud of me making such a good choice for my life . At 53 I do not want to wait another day! I have been yo-yo dieting so much ,that if you look up the word yo-yo , I am sure my face would be there .